i dun understand wat happened..

is it my fault..

or he is da 1 who is SS..

btw he should noe dat i already my temok..

but y should he say somethin like dat 2 me..

sowy fellow..

u r da 1 who is mistaken my frendship 2wards u..

i not tryin 2 humiliate u..

but my bf juz dun like ur way..

my comments 2 him...

1st comment
nana malu an anib??..anib taw x ape yg anib ckp??..klu nana nk malu an anib..dh lma lh nana malu..y skg..klu nana x ske..nana ckp..nana ne bkn pendendam..bf nana buka ms nana..baca smua comment anib..ape g nana nk ckp??..nana mnx maap cgt2 klu anib rasa nana malu an anib...bt nana ne bkn ppuan bodo nk malu an owg len..nana pown bkn baik sgt n sempurna..so wat for nk malu an owg len..

2nd comment

anib2...ye memang dia g penting dr anib..sbb dia bf nana..n anib ne kwn nana..klu anib rasa anib xnk bkwn nan nana..nana xleh nk halang anib..nana xleh nk halang tok benci nana..im nobody 2 u..i hav totally no rights 2 stop u..

3rd comment

ye nana taw..bt anib pna pkr x..klu ne smua blaku pat owg anib cyg..anib nan dia..bt tba2 ade llki say wat as u say 2 me..mesti anib mara an..dats wat my bf felt k..dia x kisah klu anib nk bkwn nan nana..cuma 1 je dia mnx..xmo lebey2..stick as frens only n no feelins...

4th comment

nana pown xtaw nk ckp ape g...dr anib je..but wat i wanna say..i dun wanna lose a fren nor neither my bf..klu anib rasa nana ne xleh nk jaga rahsia anib n smua luahan anib..anib xyah gtaw nana..t pkr nana malukn anib g..

n now dun try 2 say its my fault..

n try 2 threaten me..

sak r..

u da hell u think u r..

my 5th comment

omg..anib ne saje an sakit an ati nana..nana dh try nk baik nan anib but..u really tryin 2 get on my nerves..cgt2 cabar ksabaran nana...sowy being rude..let me tell u straight k..i love my bf..n nana x mati klu hilang 1 kwn juz bcoz ne..nana bwu je knl anib abeh anib dh camne..nana taw bkn nana share je anib share rahsia n probs..amai g ppuan..as if u r tryin 2 ask sympathy from them..hey anib..grow up pls..b a man..smpi bla2 pown anib xkn kmane2 klu anib camne..sowy cgt2 klu kuang ajar..dis wat u get if u try 2 get on my nerves..n dun jolly well judge me if u dunnoe me..2 yg paling pantang..

6th n final comment

now u blamin me??...i noe im being rude..n i m tryin 2 mind my words..bt u r gettin on my nerves..anib pkr nana ske ke ckp cam 2 pat anib..ske??..klu anib rasa nana ske..dr td since kte comment2..nana dh ckp bkn2 aw..but im not a bitch 2 say those..anib pkr lh ape anib ckp nana nana..nana tryin tok baik2 nan anib..bt ape anib ckp nan nana??..anib pkr nana ne xde perasaan gak ke??..anib xknl nana cgt2 tp anib dh judge nana.im damned sad bila kwn yg nana nk coba dkt ckp cam 2 bout me..besar cgt ke dosa nana kat anib ampi anib pkr nana cam 2??..

hurm..wateva lh..

wat i noe is u never exist in my life.

so y should i give a shit on u..

A tiring day..

damned2 tired..

for few days..

my hse is painted..

from da kitchen to da living room..

then to the master bedroom n other rooms..

hurm...

da smell of da paint make me wanna faint..

adesss....

actually plannin 2 start revision 2day..

but cant..hukhukuk..

the painter,md aidil n md sharhan,is bossin me around...

how 2 focus on my revision?..

kan..kan..kan..

now they painting aidil's room...

wah2...his red was strikin seyh..

hehehehe..

but dunnoe when will my room next...

n still thinkin wat colour should b in my room...

adesss...

penin..penin..

but well..

i hav alot fun 2day..

every1 is helpin each other n jokin around..

miss those family moments..

omg..

im feelin so2 reckless rite now...

plus wit dis headache...

makin me feel totally terrible...

day by day...

the more my headache gettin worst..

dun noe wat happenin 2 me...

feel like dis head goin 2 explode..

dis stress really make me at my wits end..

cant take it anymore..

feel like wanna take my own life..

the doc already adviced not 2 make myself stress..

but wat can i do..

dis how my life is...

full of stress...

really hate myself...

really hate everythin bout me..

hopin i would die soon..

YA ALLAH YA TUHAN KU..

MENGAPA LH UJIAN KU NE BERAT SUNGGUH..

HAMBA MU NE SUNGUH2 LEMAH..

X SANGGUP LG MAW HADAPI DUGAAN NE..

seriously i feel wanna die now..

my whole world seem wrong...

very2 wrong...

im very2 sowy..

if i done many wrong or trouble..

wish could turn back da tym...

VERY SORRY

Adesss....

WTF!!!..

sak r dis guy really makin more pissed of..

oredi mad wit some1 who judge my status at ym..

now he makin probs...

arrgghhh!!!...

dumb ass....

bodo nye jantan!!!...

well i didnt disturbed him lorh..

suddenly i received photo from him..

precisely his comments is like shit...

WTH!!!

hey listen

if u think i did bother u holiday...

fine,im sowy..

but how started 2 call me 1st??..

duh!!!..of course u..

cry 2 me dat u hav been hijacked..

its great dat i bastard u..

wanna noe y...

mainly u dunnoe how 2 appreciate girls..

then u do anythin dat pleased u..

u never think how da girls felt..

hey come on lh...

wake up!!..

u aint dat good either..

so back off DOG!!!...

sowy coz bloggin in malay..

some words is undefined..

seriously rasa so sial2 2day...

1st..

aku dh r kna mara nan makcik aku..

padahal she is mad nan abg aku..

but lepaskn pat aku lh..

pergh ayat dia..siak r..

ble tahan dowh..

btw aku taw r aku ne mnumpang kt uma dia..

she doesnt hav 2 say like dat..

then leh lak kait an nan binatang..

dia pkr aku ne ape..

xde feelin kepe..

aku paliing x ske klu owg ckp sal ahli kluarga aku..

WTF!!..

mulot 2 cam ape je..

seriously like shit..

dh r nk naek haji taun ne..

but let lak ckp cam2..

2ndly lak..

my bf..

padahal yesterday bwu ok je aw...

tba2 lak leh jd cam ne..

coz 1 post kt blog ne je..

then dia pkr aku x share probs nan dia..

btw how m i suppose 2 share wit u if wasnt around..

im dat kind person must luahkn..
xleh nk pendam lma2..

or i will get some fuckin attitude..

p/s: pls hby..

bby x bmaksod pown nk wat cam 2 nan hby..

bby taw ne smua bpunca dr bby..

im da 1 who havin problems..

bkn hby..

sowy slma ne bby slalu wat hby sakit ati nan gaya bby..

bby pown nga cuba ubah perangai bby...

but its not dat easy..

it take tym..

sowy cgt2 hby...

my famili is important 4 me..

w/pown aku kkurangan kasih sayang seowg ank..

~lps baca ne,pls dun comment bout it~

~nor ask me bout it~

~btw ne bkn tok simpati~

~aku tulis ape yg aku rasa~

~salam~

Alhamdulilah..
my relationship wit temok is fine again...

im totally afraid losin him..
hukhukuk...

well i noe is my fault..
for being such no gud gurlfren...

but im a human...

n everybody make mistakes..

but now..

i goin 2 change some of my attitude...
for me,him n every1...
makin every1 around me hepy..

n makin me hepy 2 by seein them hepy..

hehehehehehe...

MUHAMMAD KHAIRUL ASHRAF BIN ABD WAHID!!!...

i love u so0o0o0o0o much!!...
i dun want 2 lose u!!!...
my love,my heart n my soul...

is only for u!!!...

hidop ku hanye ade dia..xske???..kowg nye pasal r..

im hepy wit him..

so dun bother my relationship wit him..

no hepy wit us..

dats ur fuckin probs..

heheheheheh...

temok n chubby..

im very tired..

juz came back from joggin..

my 1st day..

hehehhee...

2 days straight went 2 jb..

juz bcoz of MD SHARHAN weddin invitation card..

hukhukhuk..

but yesterday was da best moment ever..

abg aidil was takin bout da past..

we were laughin da whole evenin seyh...

talkin bout he n my bro when they we young..

so many funny memoirs..

md sharhan n md aidil

wish i could remember all my memoirs like them..

than share wit my kids in da future..

*aish*

*bcita2 tinggi seyh..hehehe*

Being myself is very complicated..

i cant imagine wat has become me..

i couldnt see myself straight..

every wat i done is content..

every step i make is arranged..

tryin to be myself will never achieved..

seriously i dunnoe wat 2 do...

wish i cant take out my life..

it really been a painful journey for me..

damned painful..

every single person around me doesnt how i feel..

da feel 2 walk away on my own..

juz their motivation would keep up my spirit..

but i noe wit will never happened..

i was left alone..

alone to endure the journey..

Seriously feelin shit rite now...

everythin doesnt seem well...

some1 dat should b there for me...

is no where 2 b seem...

fuckin pomiz!!!!...

seriously feelin miserable rite now...

so reckless...

wat da fuck sia...

FUCKIN HATE MYSELF!!..

FUCKIN HATE MY LIFE!!..

FUCKIN HATE EVERYTHIN!!..

P/S : Where r u when i need u??..

pls dun made a pomiz if u cant make it..

ily yet u r makin me feelin suck...

damned!!!...

~very2 sad~

~need a space~

Dis so bad...

its already 5.20 am..

yet i havnt sleep..

yesterday while in jb...

i was damned fuckin sleepy..

but now i didnt sleep...

hukhukuk...

wats happenin 2 me??..

feelin not well a bit actually...

havin headache...

since few weeks ago...

em no matter wat...

im tryin 2 force myself 2 sleep...

then by 8 or 9 hav 2 wake up n get ready..

coz goin 2 jb 2 settle aidil abdullah engagements stuff...

~Ch0w~

H00Yeah!!!!!....

im done wit course already...

startin 2ml no more college for me...

hehehehhehe...

yet goin 2 miss BOSTON BUSINESS SCHOOL

But i noe i will miss them..

my fellow college mates...

my lectures...
hukhukhukhuk...
well it is not da same like primary n secondary sch..

Noe-in them is da best..

they r very kind hearted,helpful n most of all GILA!!..

hahahahhahaha...

they r from anywhere..

not only sporean r...

most of my classmates are asians..

owen's party


advance christmas party

semester 1

me through out my college days

p/s : MORE PICS 2 UPLOAD...

2day story is eat,eat n more eat...

2day is mother celebration...

sad cant celebrate wit my dearest mom..

i love u so much mom..

even though we r far..

u owez in my heart...

mmuuuaaaxxxx...

me n my mum[hamsah taruddin]

2day...

my uncle came from kl..

then we went RASA 21...

i ate sliced hor fun,ice kacang n goweng pasang

then evening...

we went 2 my aunt hse...

havin mother's celebration n tahlil...

i ate laksa..

twice lorh...

em gettin fat ar...

but who care..

it my life...

hahahhahaha...

then becomin lesbo wit my kazen in her room...

keep kissin her cheecks...

n she kissed me back..

hahahhaha...

not being myself for dis few days...

then we kissed on lips..

after i dare her..

hahahhaha...

well i admit she dare..

we did it a few times..

but not french kiss k..

us wit nothin 2 do...ahakz..

yesterday was so damned bored...

juz stayin at home wit nothin 2 do...

so as normal i juz on9 n stay in my room da whole day...

well cant say much as dat wat i owez do at home...

hahahahahaha......

then wat made pissed of yesterday isi cant open my blog...

hukhukukhuk...

also dunnoe wat happened...

i was helpin my ex wit his blog...

such as busybody also want a blog...

but cant angry wit him..

dat is his individual...

as a good ex gf(perhaps),so help him wit open heart...

but then i couldnt opened my blog...

dunnoe due 2 wat..

my password mayb..

BUT thanx 2 azlan aka selang...

for helpin me 2 recover my blog back....

hehehehe...

thanx nGUK!!..

i owe u a lunch k...

but dunnoe when we can meet..

hukhukhuk..

hate it!!!!!...
damned sia dis mornin..
1st my ex boyfren talked fuckin crap wit me...
cant bother talkin n bringin up old story...
already break so why bother talkin bout our previous relationship...


secondly...
i made my bf mad..
i broke his promise..
hukhukhuk..
well i didnt mean not 2 dlet my ex network..
thinkin he will never disturbed me again..
em....

im very2 sowy muhammad khairul ashraf bin abd wahid...
i really2 didnt mean 2 hurt ur feelin by dat way..
i love u so much..
nothin will change my love for u...
n sowy i cant b perfect for u..
take care...
remember dat u owez my heart...

2 more lessons n 1 test...im out of college..


em never thought it will b dat soon..


hukhuk...


external exams is on dis early week of june..


im also dunnoe whether im ready for it..


but at least for FINANCE..im ready for it..hahahha...








missin my TEMOK so02 much lorh..


text him only for a while..


but he did call me for a couple of mins..


i love him so0 much...


hopin we last till da rest our lives..


AMIN..

my temok..

sometym i juz dun get it..
is everythin really complicated or we r makin things complicated..
lorh..all dis this is makin me confusin r...
but..WTH!!...
as i dun give a shit on it..(perhaps)

HOYYEAH!!....
3 days straight on FINANCE!!...
yippe..
em i also dunnoe since when i love finance..
mayb da calculation..hehehe..
im scorin for dis module this external examination...